joy

I am getting to know Tai more each day.

I am able to read his body language, his cues and can anticipate what he may want next - possibly even before he realizes it himself.

We marvel at each other, lock eyes and both of us crack open the widest grin imaginable. I feel my heart literally jump up and down. Is it physically possible to have an internal organ detach itself like that for a split second? It certainly seems to be possible in my case.

With new discoveries everyday, I feel more vulnerable and protective over this little human being, who is showing me his many shades and colours and temperaments.

In all honesty, I have to say Tai is a pretty laid-back baby. He rarely cries, and when he does, it's for a good reason.

I have discovered that he absolutely hates loud noises. Today I let loose one of my massive sneezes and he just started to scream bloody murder. Up until then, he had been happily sitting in his bouncy chair for close to an hour, sucking his fists like there was no tomorrow.

I catch myself gazing at him, memorizing every single square millimetre of his beautiful face.

I can remember life before him, but what's different is now I cannot imagine life without him.

a new sense of time

Time is more precious than ever before. I now only get snatched minutes of time to accomplish something that normally I would do in mere seconds.

Depending on what is top of the priority list, those things could be taking a shower, making a phone call, washing a load of laundry, eating breakfast/lunch or more often than not, brunch, or simply closing my eyes for a 5 minute nap.

Life is full and often the days are made up of a similar routine.

It's amazing how quickly the time goes when all you do is ensure a little baby has enough sleep, food, and clean nappies.

Tai is beginning to be more alert during the days and he's started to smile and chuckle. It's awesome.

He'll hear you coming and start thrashing his legs and arms around wildly.

When you peer over his face, he'll break out into this humongous open-mouthed-gummy-grin.

You can't help but grin and laugh back. It's just one of those natural reflexes that you just do when a baby smiles at you.

This must be that giddy endorphin-charged feeling that so many parents talk about.

I think I get it now.

* pics from Aunty Claire, Great-Aunt Jan, Granny and Grandpa's visit.